Almost 25 Years of Being Alone

For almost 25 years of my life, I never had a boyfriend since birth. Its not that I'm choosy or that no one ever courted me, its just that I have this subconcious mindset that I wanted someone who I'm already familiar with. Maybe it's because I sometimes feel awkward towards a stranger (even with acquaintances) and I'm not very good with getting to know a person in a short time. You see, I'm not an inquisitive person nor am I a too friendly one. And I'm never comfortable with silence in the presence of a stranger.

For almost 25 years of my life, I was living the life of a single. I never need to ask someone else's permission (aside my parents), I get to travel alone, I shop alone, I spend my offs dating myself, I get to bond with my friends and I enjoy trying out new restaurants. Being single is surely all about freedom.

For almost 25 years of my life, I'd been doing things alone, I'd been keeping things to myself, I never need to tell anyone anything, and I never cry over some guy. Its all about me, myself and I. As someone who'd never been in a relationship, I'd been telling people that there are a lot of perks being single. However, there are also a lot of times that I'm wondering where Mr. Right is. I'm jealous with people who have someone they can share with and at the same time I'm afraid of being hurt. But it was still kind of scary to think of growing old alone afterall.

For almost 25 years of my life, I'd kept telling myself that being single is the best. What more is that almost all of the online articles I'd read had been telling so too because you have the freedom to do anything.

Its true that being single gives you a lot of freedom but I will have to say that being in a relationship is also the best thing.



There will be fights when in a relationship, problems here and there, and tears being shed but at the end of the day, if you're with the right guy, it'll be nothing but another roadblock. There is always the pros and cons as like any other relationships but that is a topic for another time. For someone like me, who had already enjoyed my single life to the fullest, I'm totally ready to commit in a relationship and I'm very happy to say that I still have as much freedom as I used to have before.

My guy is not the jealous type, in fact I wanted to see him jealous even just once (which he said he did when we were still friends). He had given me his full trust so I don't need to ask his permission for anything. I don't need to report to him whatever happened in my day nor does he prevented me from doing what I wanted (unless, of course, if it's dangerous).

I still get to go to places and try out new restaurants but now its twice more fun having someone to share it with. So I get to enjoy doing things alone and with someone now. I wouldn't have it any other way anymore.

To all young people out there, enjoy being single as much as you can so that when Mr./Ms. Right comes along you are very much ready to commit.

A Goodnight Message to My Love

Goodnight love.

I was not expecting your visit today. I had thought this would be another day that I will not see you, guess I should have not believed that I'm your least important person. Sorry that I stopped hoping that you would always have a time for me. But thank you for proving me wrong time and time again.

We may not see each other all the time like most couples do but my heart just swells everytime you remind me that I'll always be in your heart. We are not in a long distance relationship but, because we don't see each other everyday, the times that we do are some of the happiest moments of my life.

Thank you for your time and understanding. Thank you for your trust and faithfulness. And above all, thank you for your love.

I love you.

Sweet dreams :)

Finally, The Lipstick I Will Stick To

My quest for a good lipstick brand has finally come to an end. At long last, I'd found the one that has satisfied my requirements, which are affordability and long lasting. You have to know though that here in the Philippines not all kinds of lipsticks are available.

Here's my case, I'm not a person who has the luxury to spend on my wants. But I'm also not what some may consider thrifty. Let's just put it this way, I want to make the most of what little I have but at the same time I thoroughly understood the cost-quality relationship. That is why I'm really looking for a lipstick that won't be too much for my pocket.

Of course, even though I'm looking for something affordable it doesn't mean that I want to sacrifice its quality. Actually, for me, I wanted a long lasting lipstick for 2 reasons. First is that I don't want to always reapply especially after every meal and second is that I believe it will save me more if I only need to apply it once since it will mean that I will be consuming it less. There are also times, especially when I'm busy or out in the field, that I tend to forget to retouch and in all honesty, its a hassle to do so. I want my lipstick to last for at least 8 hours and mind you that I drink a lot of water throughout the day.

So through the years, I'd grown quite fond of lipsticks but I only purchase one lipstick at a time because I have the tendency to finish up first the one that I least like the most. However, just last month I'd purchased 3 different lipsticks. To better understand how I'd come upon having 3 lipstick at the same time I'd like to enumerate (in chronological order) all of the lipsticks I'd purchased so far (and remembered), my experience and my reason for changing it. The last of the list is the one that I love the most.



IN2IT



Such a lovely tube right? Well, I fell in love with its tube before anything else. I forgot which shades I tried but I tried 2. Its set of colors is nice but it doesn't last long, if my memory serves right, I have to reapply every time I drink. Honestly, at that time, I didn't know that there are lipsticks that actually last even after drinking. After the last one, I decided to find another brand for a change.



EVER BILENA MAGIC LIPSTICK



Like all magic lipsticks, you can expect this to darken throughout the day. I only purchased this once and had only applied it for 3-5 times because I really didn't like the shade when it darkens and I was afraid that it will have a bad effect on my lips because the price was too cheap (P75.00 or an estimated $1.60).



ETUDE HOUSE'S DEAR MY BLOOMING LIPS-TALK



I actually tried 2 kinds of lipstick on Etude but the first one I tried was phased out. Both of it actually feels nice on the lips and I love the color collection of Etude. But, just like IN2IT, it doesn't last. Aside from that, the lipstick itself kind of melts or softens after a while so I have to throw it away even before I totally consume it. Maybe it was due to the weather here in Philippines? I had consumed a total of 8 of Etude's lipsticks (if I'm not mistaken). It was at this time that I realize how much of a hassle reapplying lipsticks is so i decided to find a lipstick that will last all day (especially after I drink).



REVLON COLORSTAY ULTIMATE SUEDE



I first tried this one out of curiosity. As the name suggest, ColorStay, I was wondering whether it really does last. The saleslady was kind enough to tell me that it do last even after drinking. My first shade of this was something similar to the picture, if not the same. The color does last even after I eat and drink. I don't need to reapply again during office hours. But it has more cons to be honest. It's hard to apply, it dries my lips, it fades unevenly and it's almost impossible to reapply after it fades away. Either way, I still love it. I'd worn this for years and only need to buy 3-4 tubes a year. However, after my last tube this year, I decided to find a better one that will still suite my budget.



MAYBELLINE BOLD MATTE BY COLOR SENSATIONAL



I saw somewhere in the internet that Maybelline has a good long lasting lipstick, I just forgot which kind. When I was looking around the store I decided to drop by the Maybelline booth to look at their lipstick. The saleslady there told me that this was the one I was looking (actually, they only carry the Color Sensational variety), that the color stays on all day even after I drink. I was a bit skeptical, this one doesn't sound familiar at all, but I decided to give it a go because I really love the color (MAT3). Turns out this wasn't what I was looking for (I should have known better). It only stays for 4 hours but it's easy to apply and fades out evenly. What I don't like most about this is it transfers until it's completely off. I was really disappointed that I decided to find another one immediately even if this is not yet finish. To be honest, if not for the color I would have given this away.



CLINIQUE LONG LAST LIPSTICK



I also read about this on the net. I was thinking, with its price maybe it will really last. Turns out it doesn't. It basically performs the same as Maybelline Color Sensational. I was more disappointed with this one because it's way more expensive and it looks more like it fades quicker because of its color (Golden Brandy). What I just like about this is that it feels real smooth and it doesn't dry my lips at all.



COVERGIRL LIPPERFECTION LIPCOLOR



Again, I went back to the internet to find another lipstick. This time, I made sure to read as much reviews as I can. Turns out most of the lipsticks being recommended were either not available in my place or too expensive for me. It was later on that I read about Covergirl being compared to MAC and it piqued my curiosity. I decided to read more on it before I make any purchase. I decided to try the Fairytale shade and it really surprised me. For its price I never would have thought that it would last almost as much as Revlon ColorStay and it's even better. It's easy to apply, doesn't dry my lips, and fades out evenly. What amazed me more is that it doesn't have any transfer (after sometime). I drank a lot of soup (and wiped my mouth with a wet towel) one time and noticed that the color was still there. It's really amazing. So far it had last for 8 hours and more. I am sticking to this one from now on.



So yeah, my most recommend affordable and long lasting lipstick would be Covergirl Lipperfection Lipcolor. Maybe in the far future I will look for another one again but I'm sure that I will always fall back to this one if I'm not satisfied with the others.

REFERENCES:

• KISS PROOF: DRUGSTORE LIPSTICKS THAT LAST ALL DAY


• The Best Drugstore Lipsticks Of All Time


• The 10 Best Drugstore Lipsticks


• 7 gorgeous drugstore lipsticks to wear this fall


• Eight Drugstore Lipsticks We Love


• REVIEW: COVERGIRL LIP PERFECTION IN 260 HEAVENLY


• [Review]Covergirl Lip Perfection Lipstick


• The Best Long-Lasting Lipsticks

ROBIN WILLIAMS: You'll Always Be Remembered

At age 63, Robin WIlliams, was found dead on August 11, 2014. Its such a great lost to the entertainment industry as this talented man had greatly shaped comedy. He was a man of wit and talent, he ad-libs whenever he could and it just adds more appeal to the storyline. He was an actor who was immensely loved by those who had seen his roles as a child in a man's body, a funny and heart wrenching man at the same time, and a comedian. He was all these and many more during my childhood and I do believe that he has grown in the heart of every child who was there to watch him grow to more adult roles.

His death did surely impact a lot of people. Everyone is mourning for his death - actors, audiences, friends, media, and including President Barack Obama who said these words:

Robin Williams was an airman, a doctor, a genie, a nanny, a president, a professor, a bangarang Peter Pan, and everything in between. But he was one of a kind. He arrived in our lives as an alien — but he ended up touching every element of the human spirit. He made us laugh. He made us cry. He gave his immeasurable talent freely and generously to those who needed it most — from our troops stationed abroad to the marginalized on our own streets. The Obama family offers our condolences to Robin’s family, his friends, and everyone who found their voice and their verse thanks to Robin Williams.

From laughing at his wittiness to crying for his realistic portrayal of a crying man, I had been captured by this man. I only have two favorite actors, him and Michael J. Fox, and I'm just in my mid 20's, and all I can say is that Robin WIlliams will always be the Dr. Patch Adams in my life. Watching his movies will always be a healing and refreshing way to start again after a difficult situation. He will always be remembered as a character who sheds light in dark times, an actor who encouraged people that craziness isn't all that bad, an adult who proved that there is still a child within us, and a person who's not afraid to take on challenges.

To commemorate some if his works, here's a few of his memorable movies for me:

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Sources:

• Robin WIlliams


• Robin Williams leaves behind four upcoming films


• Robin Williams: His 5 Most Memorable Roles


• Actor Robin Williams Dies at 63


• Entertainment world mourns passing of friend and mentor Robin Williams


• Robin Williams Dead at 63: Celebrities React to Comedian's Shocking Death, Including President Obama, Sarah Michelle Gellar


• US actor Robin Williams found dead at home


• Robin Williams Dead: Beloved Actor Dies In Apparent Suicide


• Actor Robin Williams Is Dead at 63 of Suspected Suicide


• Robin Williams dead at 63 in suspected suicide

 

 

ME, MYSELF, & I: Not My Day

I went to sleep not feeling well, I woke up not feeling well, I am presently having a conflict of emotions thus I'm having a bad day right now. I feel mad, frustrated, lonely, disappointed, and bad all at the same time. I feel like I want to cry but I don't want to at the same time. I hate this feeling. This is just so not my day. However, I need to be in a good mood in order to come up with an idea.

I don't know how to vent my anger right now because I usually cry. But since that is not an option right now I'll just have to right it down.

I don't want feeling this way because I'm be having a hard time concentrating. Though I tried for the happy thoughts method its still not enough. I just want to move on and get on with the remainder of this day. I wish things had not happened but at the same time I'm quite thankful it didn't happen earlier.

I know I'm rumbling about nonsense already, I just really want to feel better after this. I really hope this helps me in the end.

ME, MYSELF & I: Childishness

I am a grown individual and had reached what I consider as the prime age of maturity, wherein I should have left the child in me. However, that is not the case. I am not only having it as a company but it seems that its not leaving my side anytime soon. And worst is that it seems that it is growing more in me.

Every person has that childishness within them. Its what keeps people sane, idealistic, hopeful, innocent, adorable, and playful. However, at certain age, it is also what makes people irritable, impatient, illogical, and downright dumb. And in my case, I'm feeling myself being more of that negative vibes than the positive ones. Or maybe I'd reached the point wherein childishness is not something to be admired at with someone of my age.

ME, MYSELF, & I: The Imperfect Me

How do you describe a perfect person? How about how you describe yourself? Do you believe yourself to be near perfect? Or do you, like millions of others, admit that you are far from perfection? Had you ever thought of what being perfect really is? Is perfection something you can judge based on what you can see? Who is the role model of perfection? All these (and many others) are questions you may had asked yourself when you start wondering about how to be perfect. I'd also asked myself these same questions and the answer I came up with is I am far too imperfect to ever be the perfect person. And here are the reasons why:

• I don't have a flattering figure, let's just say I'm fat. Except for my butt, nothing about my figure could be considered as a physical asset. I am an overweight person of average height. I have a round face with big cheekbones and small nose. I don't have a long and slender neck. My breasts are of normal sizes. I have a big tummy with lots and lots of body fats. I have a pair of big arms and legs, I even have cellulites (I think so) on my legs.


• I'm not beautiful. I don't have big and beautiful eyes. My lips are not red or pink. My cheeks are not pinkish. I have a subtle mustache and my skin is not flawless, there are scars here and there.


• I have a set of thinning hair. Hair fall has always been my problem and so far I had not found an effective solution for it yet.


• I'm not athletic and have a hard time burning off my excess fats.


• I'm clumsy and forgetful. I have a short term memory lifespan. I could easily forget a lot of things. I also get trips on unexpected places.


• I easily get irritated when things don't go my way and have moody tantrums.


• I'm not good at anything except drawing but that was years ago. I could cook but all of my dish could be considered as experiments.


• I don't have a good sense of humor but I do small things can easily make me happy. I'm not good at telling jokes or making one. All my attempts at joking had been big failures.


• I'm not a good person, I have evil thoughts at times and can do bad things when provoked.

I could lists more things about why I'm not perfect but that would take up too much time. The point is, I had long ago accepted my imperfections and knew that I could never become a perfect person no matter what I do. Though I did accept them it doesn't mean that I'm satisfied with things and just let them be. Oh no...

You see, even though I am totally cool with my imperfections, I know that somehow there is a way to improve myself. Those imperfections are like goal setters that I have to pass in order to become a better me. I am not just aiming for betterment just for myself, I also want to be better for my friends and love ones. I know that with each improvement I also gain self confidence that in turn would help improve my relationship with the people around me.

But, even throughout my imperfections, I am still very much thankful to the people who loves me and had stayed by my side. I'm especially thankful to them for accepting all my imperfections without trying to change me but had been there to encourage me on what I wanted to achieve.

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